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[twenty-four hours has passed, the proverbial timer in the universe goes off, and much in the way that riku appeared, so does he, but mere feet away from the hole he jumped in the previous day. his clothes are even worse for the wear than when he first went in, small tears and cuts all over his beloved coat and suit.]

[but he's alive and starts to cough, his face tight as all at once pain shoots through every cell in his body. again his voice is strained, but he sounds happy despite it all.]

Fun ride. Don't think I'll be repeating that one again. [he tries to sit up, but immediately collapses right back on the ground and begins to laugh slightly, ignoring the pain. then suddenly stops.]

Hang on...same voice, [tentatively feels his face] same nose, sideburns, hair, mole between shoulder blades--Oh! And both hands! I like that! Glad that worked out!

[whispers to himself] But...I thought I'd died... I felt it! And yet I didn't regenerate... [his eyebrows furrow] How odd.

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hisoldgirl

[know how angry she is? she's speaking to you in Gallifreyan. very, very angry Gallifreyan] You left me alone.

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bit_impossible

[he replies in kind, only without a hint of anger in his voice.] But I came back. I always do, you know that better than anyone.

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hisoldgirl

[she's still pissed, but also just upset. and will be speaking in nothing but Gallifreyan from here out] You did not warn me. You did not ask. There was no guarantee you would return to me!

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bit_impossible

[doesn't bother switching back to english] I had to try, though. And you're right, I should have told you. At least prepared you for the worst, but luck worked in my favour and I did return to you!

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hisoldgirl

And if you had not? Oliver would not let me join you. I would have been alone!

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bit_impossible

[falls silent. when he does speak, his voice is barely a whisper] I'm sorry old girl. But you wouldn't have been alone for long. My younger self is still out there and he's searching for you too. He would have found you.

From:

hisoldgirl

And what of the TARDIS trapped on the Crucible? What would you have had her do? You left her to wither and die in sorrow and loneliness.

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bit_impossible

[again that silence. he can't simply admit that yes, he had been that selfish, that utterly reckless and thoughtless--and yet, he didn't want anyone to know for those precise reasons.] He would know what to do.

But for all I know, she might not even be there! [points shakily in the general direction of the Crucible.] She could already be lost and alone all this time, floating through the vortex or settled on any of the millions of planets in the universe.

I never mean to leave you alone.

From:

hisoldgirl

He would know, and yet you do not.

[his words don't fill her with any sort of confidence, you know] Perhaps. But she can still feel you, Doctor. Why do you think I was able to survive in the divergent universe? It would have been so easy to let it consume me, but I could still feel you. It does not matter how far apart we are: she will know, and she will wait. But she cannot wait for the dead.

No, perhaps you do not. But you never think of me before you do such things. Am I so easily tossed aside? Am I so taken for granted?

From:

bit_impossible

I would know because he's me, and if I had died for good, then yes, he would be the only one who would know. And I wouldn't have left you there. You were the only thing on my mind the whole time, keeping me going. Even now I can't stop wondering where you are. Where you truly are.

The thing is, though old girl...I can't feel you. I haven't been able to feel you the entire time we've been captives of that ship. Whatever took me did something to me. I know the connection's still there, but it's like that part of my mind is numbed.

However...not being able to feel and being downright cruel to you are two different things. I'm so sorry, old friend. I'm always hurting you.

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hisoldgirl

[frowns at his words, letting them sink in, then lowers her head, her anger fading] I cannot feel you, either. It is empty and gnawing and painfully silent, all the places you should be. It is lonely. I am not meant to be alone, Doctor. I am not meant to be without a pilot. Your body here is a comfort where the lack of you in my mind is maddening, and yet you would take even that comfort away. Were you to disappear, I would truly be alone. I do not know that you fully understand that.

[glances at him, raising a hand to touch his jaw] Do not do so again. Do not leave me alone.

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bit_impossible

[he leans towards her and gathers her up in his arms, hugging her close to his body. he understands that more than she knows.] I won't. I'll never truly leave you alone, not until it's the final good-bye between the two of us and that day is a long, long, long way off.

[presses a kiss to her hair and releases her, smiling encouragingly for her] Besides, I'm pretty hard to get rid of, haven't you noticed?

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hisoldgirl

[lets him pull her in, nuzzling against his collar as he speaks] Do not speak of it. Do not ever speak of it.

[stays close] I have never attempted to get rid of you. I would not know.